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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 10:18

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

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She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

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Thats was my nicest nick name for him

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

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I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

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My mum and dad in the seventies!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

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He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

She found it foreign!.

Why am I so jealous towards couples? Why am I tired of being single and feel my life is over?

Who then, do I blame.?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

All the time i was locked up.

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I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Put me off passion for life!!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

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Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Can a cop pull you over walking home asking why you are out so late?

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

How many of you have had your parental rights taken away because of lies and no truth whatsoever, and did you prove the lies that were told about you to be false either through drug testing or another way, but still had your rights taken?

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

(And it was in our own minds.)

It was going to be , some day.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

As i do to all so called friends.?

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

So whats the point in blame.

I waited trembling.

Im still living with it.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

But it wasn’t much.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I couldn’t, believe it.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

When she asked me how she looked .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

We were not on the streets..

I said to her

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I was 9 years of age.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

What did i know ?

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I was very sick at this time too.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

She wouldn,t have been !

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Especially a lifetime of it.

I write beautiful poetry .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

We all went to grammer schools

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

My life is so biszare .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

One cannot live in the past .

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I will be 64.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I was seconnd youngest,

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

She was in good health!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Ive learnt so much.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Was to survive, this bastard.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I think the readers, may guess!

This is soul school!.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

He resisted the act ,that day.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

And i lived it daily.

I have no regrets .

Comes on , in middle age.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

So, i spoilt her more .

She loved him until the end.

I was scared of men, in general

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Would this be the day?

But, we were locked up after school.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

My family never makes their pension either.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I don,t even have a pension.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

He knew the spot.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

She married twice! .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

But ive been too sick for many years..

One cannot hold on to bitterness.